Not doing so great...

Ok, so it's been about a month since I finished my "re-feeding" phase of my diet. All excuses aside, I have failed to eat inline with my maintenance program and have booked in to see my consultant at the clinic again on Monday. I have managed to put on about 4kgs. I know a lot of it is probably water retention that will go in a week of going strictly on my original eating program, but I think because I know how easy it is to do what I need to do to get back on track, I keep putting it off. So I have booked myself in again  for some guidance and accountability.

I have been feeling so down for the past week or two. I know that it's the food that I'm eating that is causing me to feel so out of the norm, but mentally I have not been able to stop myself! I have kept away from sugar and have found that this is a life change that I want to and will be able to maintain. I just have to be careful to not go crazy on baking and creating with my replacement sugars. These are just for TREATS! 

AndCARBOHYDRATES! They have been a killer temptation for me! I think it's a combo of the cold weather and the fact that I'm not eating sugar that I crave the blood sugar high that comes from a carb overload... Not good. I always just feel so flat after a carb binge. A bit like a sugar binge I guess. 

Them there is DAIRY! Eep! Usually Trent & I don't have milk in the fridge very often. But Lorenzo is now drinking cows milk instead of formula and so we keep a lot of milk on hand. I can guzzle so much of the stuff! It's hard to resist when it's just there! 

So much to work on mentally, but I'm getting help for my accountability. I need all the help I can get atm! I refuse to let myself go back to how I was!